i’m having another time when I am wary of what to share and what not to share. I am opening a lot of new doors, which is really exciting. And, of course, also new and unknown.

I have 3 weeks left at my current job. I am ready to be gone, but will miss that place. It is time, to believe in my abilities and invest in myself. I can do this. I just need to remember to dream my dreams and make sure that I bite off small chunks of that dream and make it work and bite off another. It is easy for me to get in a cycle of idea idea idea idea and BOOOOM overextended.

I had coffee with a friend I haven’t seen in a while and he mentioned that I am spreading myself a bit thin. Again. sigh*

A part of me. Or all of me but only a part wants to admit it wonders if I do this to distract myself a bit from my business and making. I am afraid of what I can accomplish and I am afraid that I will fail. And so procrastinate. I do want to learn to play the violin but should tell myself I can do that after I’ve had 6 successful months of business. That these new ideas are a reward for doing the next right thing with my business.

It’s so strange and so weird and makes me happy, tired, and anxious. So I am going to try and set myself some challenges. Some realistic challenges. Realism and reality. sigh I am such a dreamer.

okay, i am going to go to bed soon.

goodnight everyone.

Christina Osheim