😐 

#%*^ 

Nothint bad has happened today. Possibly some good. I just don’t know. And I won’t know. And it is out of my hands. 

$&”@ 

😐 

it irritates me so much that i can only do the next right thing and trust HP. And ask to be kept right sized. Which actually is just as hard when you’re feeling low as when elated. That hadn’t crossed my mind until I wrote it. With a big 🤦‍♀️

I am doing the things I need to be doing. I am not procrastinating. I don’t feel a sense of dread, just rip the bandaid off and let me know what I’m dealing with. I can handle rejection & failure. I’ve has plenty of both as well as welcome & success. I am being. 

the blessing circle is really good. I am so glad I stumbled into it last year and again this year.  i am going to keep on going back. 

So, tonight if i keep up this pattern of doing the next right thing and procrastinating I send off my first monkey email.  

And... 45 Minutes later the monkey is still laughing at me and throwing banana peels. 😂🤦‍♀️ I have my first practice cAmpaign email going and 🤞 

 

(I wonder if when I get too wrapped up in my shit, which is far too often, I become s careless friend. I hope not too often.) 

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 He, Wilfred Owens, is a favorite poet of mine. 

 

 

Christina Osheim