it’s is 3:46pm and I am sitting on the front porch of a friends house watching their dog explore and awaiting a call from my brother.
i have been working on the computer— no, not this silly funny little smart phone— but on my laptop.
And 6 hours later...
i had such a good conversation with him. That has been one of my favorite things. He and I have gotten quite close. Sobriety has taught me how to see underneath. The interstitial space. I still realize how much I have yet to see. Or learn to. BUT!!! When I had a neuropsychologist my visual memory ranked at the 98th%. So I can see and remember now I just have to get used to new lenses, or swapping lenses.
I am changing and change is happening. I think I found a place to move into. Rephrase, I have found and just need to get the paperwork done.
I have decided no shows unless it’s a party at my studio/sale I’m coordinatonf/free pop up in DC. And if my sales #’s don’t improve that I will remove myself from HOME showplace Tribeca.
i am really getting my online presence going and feeling a bit less pulled in so many directions. Or having to fit myself into a myriad of specifically shaped holes, none of which are me sized.
I went to a friends wedding reception in the country tonight and it was beautiful. Really incredible. I was/am so touched she invited me. I need to try and reach out more.
im now sitting watching a documentary on Amy Winehouse and cuddling with my friends dog. I feel super content, with a pang of sadness that I am turning a corner. I want to be doing this and need to be doing it. But there have been some very beautiful things about the past 2 years that i need to remember and honor.
On a parting note. I went to Target and bought waxing strips a friend recommended. AND!!! I waxed my legs. There is still some hair, but I am not going to shave again. Nope. Armpits and legs are going unshken. Bikini only when going swimming. And I’m xonginuing to smell things. My neural pathways are opening!!!
peace out blog buddies!!!