i just have to say "wow, this is my life." I woke up early and had quiet coffee time and just started enjoying the day and doing things. Work yes, but pleasurable. Imagining things. Possibilities. Root systems. How .5 x .5 needs to go on the grocery list for tomorrow am along with flowers. 

I found an awesome leonard nimoy bilbo baggins video on fb. Its looking like a mini cousin reunion might happen in April. And driving to work it is crisp and sunny and green. It feels fresh. And this is my life?!?!? 

What I am trying to say is that what i am currently living is better than i could ever hope for. Its not the "ideal" nor the worst possible. Its a life with its ups and down, fears and worries,  but it seems to suit me. I am feeling ok.

im also currently dumb struck that i got into an ACC show. So a lot of this rumination is me trying to figure out how to catalogue a possibility or opportunity like it. It is something yet it could be a minor something an indifferent something or a larger somethong. I can do work and put my best face forward and try to guide it to the something i think i need. But ultimately my part is going to only be one cog in the large wheel that makes up the something's of life.


this something needs to go and do a thing to make the some. Or be a sum/some that makes the whole. And what better way than to habe Agent Dale Cooper guide me to my own self designed gray lodge.

my view while writing this blog today ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 

my view while writing this blog today ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 

Christina Osheim