I just tead the title of my last blog. WTF? I was tired but cannot decipher or remember what I intended to type. If I had figured out how to use Siri I could blame it on her! I read a headline kf an article about a robot/android that someone built to be a priest and give blessings. I just read the headlines and so my thoughts/comments/humor should be easily inferred.
i am getting work done. And it is good work. But man it takes a lot of time. Im blogging now as I just need a break from it! Or a nap! I have been enjoying life and so this work does make sense. I am beginning to really see myself. Thats such a funny thing to say. I am seeing myself. Really seeing myself. So that mirror is just reflecting a 3d image the aliens decided to play on earth for a while. I am the marionette doll and the reality is?!?!? The strings Im attached to? Or that I am wired to have an onstagram or snapchat filter that I distort my face with. A twisty mirror at the circus fair. A lady gaga in real life with a push up bacon bra.
But it is true, I do see patterns. And my own involvement in them be they good bad or ugly. It is humbling. And that is where I start to see myself. A multidimensional, complex lady with faults and with qualities. Aka, a human. To those friends and family of mine reading this I want to tell you that I do worry about seeming to be so self involved. Me me me me me. I am aware of how focused I am on me and right now as I rebuild myself I must be.
Enough introspection! Now for the fun in life. The really cool thing about working for myself is that I make my own schedule. And can take care of friends kids! Running an errand to the McGuffey I happened to run into a frienda au pair and her two adorable tow headed 3.5 year old adorable mischievous girls! FUN!!!! Playground time? Why yes, I think so. It is such a joy to hear a young voice yell "Christina!!!!! Come push me!" And then giggle like a lunatic as I do. Talk about a day brightener. And best yet I am sitting outside now, have had jy deep thoughts, eaten my empanada, loving my life and the world and about to pick up another friends 3.5 year old boy and go have mad adventures with him! Hipp Hipp Hurrah life!!!